"I Told You I Was Trouble"

Amy Winehouse is dead, have you heard? Girl was a mess, it’s true, but does that make her death any less terrible, because it was avoidable? Or was it avoidable at all? She had a disease and the treatment didn’t work. Or at least speculation says the treatment didn’t work. It has not been officially reported how she died and whether or not it was due to recent drug use. Videos from her recent concert in Belgrade would argue that it did. Whatever the case, it is truly sad that her incredible talent has been seriously overshadowed by her demons, a la Michael Jackson. 

I think we are all aware of the fact that addiction is a disease. Amy Winehouse was a hard and fast addict. From crack to ketamine, she didn’t dabble in drugs, she showered in them. She was so obviously on a dark path to destruction since way before Back to Black was released. We all watched this woman deteriorate before our eyes. She was Marilyn Monroe, Janis Joplin, Jimi Hendrix...all over again. In a twisted way, we were entertained by it.  

Do we glorify the drug-fueled deaths of famous musicians/artists/actors? In a way, yes.  Is it entertaining? Of course. Is it perverse? Absolutely. 

Why is this particular form of human suffering so eye-catching? I believe it’s because there is a type of excitement, rebelliousness to addiction that those who have never experienced wonder about, maybe even want a taste of. Yet those who have truly dealt with these demons can assure you, that romantic feeling is no longer present when you’re living in the throes of addiction.

There is a romanticism surrounding drug use and even rehab. I have often wondered why shows like “Intervention” get so much viewership, myself included. Is it because we can all connect to that out-of-control feeling in one way or another? Do we all in some subconscious way covet the ability to let everything go and literally have no other concern in your life other than where your next hit will come from? Do we all in some way desire to see just how far our friends and family would go to bring us back from the depths of our suffering? Shows like “Intervention” and “Celebrity Rehab” show the dark side of addiction, sure, but they also promote the idea that when you’re ready (you hit your ‘rock bottom’) you get a shiny rehab center in Palm Springs where you can rehab in luxury, all paid for by your friends at A&E. I don’t think we are naive enough to believe this to be true, or even effective. 

As an “artist”....(I feel pretentious even using that term but I suppose it applies to anyone who creates art, yes?) I feel that there is a certain romanticism constantly applied both consciously and subconsciously to the struggle of an artist. It’s almost expected that you have some kind of demon on your back. Van Gogh drank himself to death with absinthe, HST put a bullet in his brain, Salinger couldn’t bear to face a world he detested, McQueen couldn’t take it anymore. Pain makes great art, it’s absolutely true, but are the two mutually exclusive? It would seem for some people they are, for many of the most famous artists who have dealt with these issues, they are. But, do we glorify their work because of their struggle? Or is it always the case that their work is worth glorification?

I can’t speak too much on Amy Winehouse except that I do believe she reopened a genre and allowed a much easier passage for female soulful artists like Adele. She wasn’t gorgeous, she didn’t have her shit together and she didn’t pretend to, but damn, the girl could write and sing. And it wasn’t that Glenda-the good witch, high pitched, singing to the birds shit. It was all over the place, but controlled, powerful, heartfelt, pure. Pure in the sense that she sang from her heart, it wasn’t cleaned up or smoothed out.  

The question is, is this always the case? Would Kurt Cobain have held our attention for so long if his mind didn’t get the better of him? Would we still care what Elvis had to say at 76 years old? Would anyone care about Marilyn Monroe once her figure faded? Even Bradley Nowell, would Sublime just be some band seen as an anachronism rather than the voice of a twisted 90’s counterculture? We can all argue these points to death but we’ll never truly know, all we will know is that their deaths certainly helped solidify their place in the history of pop culture. 

 Let’s be honest, the media takes advantage of it’s sweethearts and it is no place for someone who isn’t mentally stable. Though you can’t really blame “the media” too much, they are responding to the demand. In the same way we can’t get angry for recurring seasons of Jersey Shore because apparently there are a whole lot of people in the world who watch it (wtf?), we can’t completely blame the media for exploiting these troubled stars. We bought the magazines, we watched the videos, we saw the downfall happen before our eyes. 

We see the manipulation of the media all the time, Britney Spears is a prime example. In what other circumstance would we feel as though we have a right to be front row to someone’s mental breakdown? The media tells us, “no, it’s ok, you can watch, these people sold their souls to you”. 

The artists who truly succeed seem to be the ones who know who they are and refuse to compromise their values. They aren’t swayed by distractions because they’re not in it for the fame or fortune, they’re there for their art. They keep their private lives to themselves and stay as far away from the media as possible. They’re also the ones who are lucky enough to not battle with addiction or if they do, they received help quickly. Lots of money, lots of access, and groups of people seemingly encouraging your behavior are a deadly combination for an addict. Amy definitely had the odds stacked against her. 

It’s almost uncomfortable to listen to her music. To get so much out of something that came from so much pain is a strange thing but truthfully, the basis for a lot of amazing art, writing and music. It really is too bad the no one around her was able to guide her through her struggles. It seems selfish to say she was cut short in her musical career (think of what she might have produced if she pulled herself together!), when really, she was cut short in her life. And the 27 Club grows. 

If you’re interested, check out Russell Brand’s eulogy, I thought it was quite eloquent. 

"Star Gazed"

I am pseudo participating in Annex Comics 30 Day Sketch Challenge. Basically, if the prompt inspires me to write something, I'll do so; if it inspires me to draw something, I'll do so...albeit awfully. Anyway, if I like what I wrote I'll post it on here just because it's not really appropriate to post it on the Event Wall, and it gives me a reason to bring the piece to some sort of completion. Though, I believe that "no piece is ever truly finished, only abandoned". So, read if you'd like.

Day 2:

Star Gazed

You have to wonder 

if your distance is sound.

Every time you walk

silently, 

up that hill.

Eyes marveling,

lying flat,

alone,

staring down God.

If he’s game,

If he’s out there.

You have to wonder

if it’s safe to dwell here;

with your mind wrapped up in wonders,

feeling the Earth shrink

beneath you.

You have to wonder

if it’s wise 

to let yourself

feel so insignificant;

with insurmountable, 

unknowable energies

playing games with 

feeble lives. 

What reason is there to rise?

Better to be devoured.

Better to beat them to the punch. 

Better to join them.

You're destined for the stars as it is,

with that mind too expandable 

for the confines of Earth.  

Prompt -"Deep space is my dwelling place, the stars my destination" 

Cancer is a Bitch.

I have been wanting to write something about cancer for awhile. I wrote a bit on it when this all started and I haven’t written anything since. It would seem there’s a block. I don’t want to think about it too in depth just yet, in the same way you don’t talk about a frightening landing on an airplane until you’re safe on the ground. Rather, you hold your breath for the duration, don’t speak a word. Somehow it seems safer that way, avoidance. It’s funny how the brain protects itself. 

In some ways I have been dealing with Peter’s cancer at a distance. He doesn’t live with me so every other week I knew I could see him and on his off weeks he went home to have chemotherapy. Sure he lost some hair (not nearly as much as expected though!), he was pale and tired, but he never lost who he was. I can count on one hand the amount of times he seemed overwhelmed or depressed. I occasionally accompanied him to his treatment and watched him realize that despite his misfortune, he was relatively lucky. As he would say, he was going through this with a cure pretty much guaranteed, while others were enduring the trials of chemo with little to no hope. 

Despite the enormity of the whole situation, none of it has ever seemed real. I sometimes force myself to think about what his doctor said when he was first diagnosed in October, if he had waited much longer, he wouldn’t have seen the New Year. We would never have known anything was wrong and we would be in a much different situation. Losing him is something I can’t quite allow myself to think about, it’s a “what if” that despite being out of the question at this point and pretty much throughout this whole ordeal, is still too close to us, I can still feel it breathing down our neck.  

I’m suffocated by how fragile life is, it weighs down on me. We take people in our lives for granted, of course. How exhausting life would be if we lived in our highest expression of love for our family and friends at all times. So, we normalize. In doing so, we take those in our life for granted, we have to act as if they will always be there because if we didn’t, life could not go on..and that is what we are best at, living life. 

What I have learned most from being by Peter’s side during this is that life does go on. Ridiculous, incredible things can happen to you, things that would have been unimaginable in the past. People lose loved ones suddenly, they have a child with disabilities, they lose a major part of themselves physically or emotionally. Anything can happen. You keep going and you normalize. To Peter, it became normal that every other week he went to therapy and was filled with poison that was in some way saving his life and destroying it at the same time. To me, “cancer” became an everyday word, it became something I learned about, something I connected to others with, it suddenly became part of my identity as someone who has a loved one with cancer. And it will be with us for the rest of our lives. 

Embarrassingly, I have had my moments of selfishness. I have wanted so badly for all his treatments to be done and when I truly thought about it I was so anxious to get on with our lives. I’m learning to live in the moment and have patience. Patience is not my strong suit. Ultimately, while I still have the ability to work and move forward, Peter’s professional life is truly on hold while he finishes treatment. I at times need to redirect and refocus my anxiety, use my energy in a positive way. 

I believe that the only thing you can do in a difficult or tragic situation is to accept it, do not fight it, and choose to take something positive away from it. Any event in our life only becomes truly tragic when we don’t learn from it or allow it to change our lives for the better. For Peter and I, we have to focus on how lucky he is to have found his cancer before it was too late, his ability to now live his life healthfully and mindfully, and our new appreciation for the life we will have together, the one we easily could have lost. If you can take nothing away from your trials and tribulations, if you choose not to grow, that is the only real tragedy. 

    

"You'se a BITCH, and your aunt's a BITCH!"

Some people may think that there is no need for feminism anymore, that a picture of Hillary Clinton sitting across the table from President Barack Obama as they watched the murder of America’s #1 enemy proves feminism was a success. No more need to to burn your bras, ladies. I feel the need to say that while this is incredible, there will never be a time that feminism is not needed. Need I remind you that during her campaign Ms. Clinton was berated for being too cold, showing no feminine softness, then when she cried it was “scripted” and “insincere”. There was always an undercurrent of snickering and someone at the ready to make the most obvious “blow-job” joke at any given moment. The media shifted their lens when they discussed Ms. Clinton and focused their judgements in relation to her as a woman, not as a political candidate, first. So, while some may call for a cease-fire to feminism, I say women still make 77 cents on the dollar compared to men....so the fight is far from over.  

I believe the main problem here is that so many of us fail to acknowledge that, like it or not, there are inherent differences between men and women. Our brains work differently, our bodies are made differently and what we lack we make up for in other ways. Rather than try to hide this fact, we need to take it head on. Women are different from men and should be celebrated for it. We are not better or worse, but we are different. Men have an inherent need to protect women, ok—I’ll buy it, but does it really mean that we shouldn’t have women fighting for this country because some namby-pants sissy man is going to cry over her if she gets hurt? Man up! (that’s right, I said it.) Women have something to offer every field and instead of fearing their differences, organizations like the military should welcome them and learn from them. 

As far as women making less money than men, I believe this comes down to the “bitch factor”. When women are aggressive and forceful in the same way that men are, they become inaccessible to their co-workers, they are not admired for their courage but dealt with as if they had thorns. Women have to walk a very fine line when dealing with men in positions of power. It seems as though men don’t know how to deal with a powerful woman, never mind encourage and reward her aggressive behavior. Furthermore, women are doing this to each other! I have met very few woman in power who are not mean and manipulative to their female co-workers, particularly those beneath them. Rather than work together and help each other succeed, we so often work against each other. Why? Is it because we’re afraid that there isn’t enough room for other women at the top?

I’m about to get real specific. I believe Kathie Lee Gifford and her talk show is a haven for everything women have fought against. This show is the death of feminism in a nutshell. (hyperbole, anyone?) Now, I believe Hoda was dragged into this mess and can’t escape the train wreck that is Kathie Lee, but that’s besides the point. Let me give you one example, They had on this woman who had written some book about how women need to stop worrying about their looks and be their natural selves. If you’re happy with who you are and love yourself as a person your own happy glow will shine through. After 5 minutes or so of this bullshit, Kathie Lee and her guest (obviously not that interesting because her book and name escape me) discuss how fat their arms look on TV and how they feel disgusting in whatever dress their stylist had put them in. HYPOCRITE! How can you not see that you literally just threw away everything you were trying to do/say?

Feminism at it's finest. That's sarcasm, ok. Sarcasm.

Lastly, I can’t imagine raising a young woman today. The kinds of things that are said in songs, particularly hip hop, (click here for Usher’s latest “respect for females” song) the messages that are sent out in various young adult shows and books....the fact that we allow someone like SNOOKI to be on television and we celebrate her (what the hell is wrong with us)...your only defense would be to somehow raise a young woman who, amongst all the crap, is able to see her worth. Who judges herself not based on her clothing, and what MEN think of her, but finds a way to navigate her own self worth through her intellect and moral compass. This can’t be easy. Not to mention the constant barrage of people who RUN OUR COUNTRY proving just how much they disrespect the women in their lives. Edwards cheated on HIS DYING WIFE, Arnold has a whole other family, Weiner thinks we all want to see his junk....I mean c’mon, that’s just the tip of the freakin’ iceberg. 

We can get as mad as we want about men disrespecting us and all the terrible things that happen to women, but it won’t matter until we risk being labeled a “bitch” and demand their respect. We have to refuse to be treated this way and raise our young men to treat women with respect and raise our young women to accept no less. We have to instill them with courage, because they will need it. 

America is not a level playing field, sure, it’s a hell of a lot more level than other places in the world, but that doesn’t mean we shouldn’t stop fighting for more. We are paving the way for our daughters and granddaughters..don’t we owe them more than “16 and Pregnant”?

Mmm Whatcha Say

Alright, so maybe I’m a bit out of touch with the current rap world, but I have never heard of this rapper Lil B. Have you? Correction, I hadn’t heard of him until yesterday. I read an article that discussed his decision to name his album “I’m Gay” and the onslaught of publicity (and death threats) he received because of it. 

(Is this a new trend in the gay community that I'm unaware of?)

“Great”, I thought, “a ‘cool’ black male representing the gay community, what courage.”. As far as gay black men go, there aren’t very many of them who are out and vocal enough to support each other and the few that I know find it very hard to assimilate their culture with their sexuality. Not that I have any idea about the plight of a gay black man, but I can imagine that in a world that champions hip hop and rap with heros such as Kanye West and Jay-Z, it’s probably a little hard to come out to your friends. Don’t get me wrong, I love these musicians, but they sweat testosterone. 

Anyway, I was totally wrong. This kid is pulling a complete and total publicity stunt. I think it’s rude and (bottom lining it) ignorant. Lil B (original name, btw) claims that he is not coming out, but simply using the word “gay” for its original meaning: “happy”. He’s just a real happy guy and apparently only strict definitions of words matter to him, connotations are for losers. As he put it so eloquently, “Some people worried about [...] the definition of words and shit. First of all, gay means happy.” Thanks, Webster.  Wonder how good his raps are. 

What Lil B did do, completely by accident, is draw attention to how our nation still reacts to the gay community, and how words (definitions and connotations) carry a lot of weight. Which brings up an intriguing question...to what extent is it our responsibility to choose our words based not on what we intend by them, but how they are perceived and understood? 

First off, it’s ridiculous but unsurprising that Lil B received death threats for his “I’m gay” claim. Granted, the forum for his unintentional “coming out” is similar to Sarah Palin sporting an “I love Kucinich” sticker at a Tea Party rally, but the fact remains that there is still a whole lot of hate in our country. In my opinion, we encourage and allow this behavior by not allowing equality in marriage and by letting it slide that political leaders like Michele Bachman (click that link, it's hilarious) and Newt Gingrich support groups like The Family Leader. 

(side note: The Family Leader is a group that has stated it is proud to be a “hate group” and considers Matthew Shepard’s death a necessary victory for their cause). 

It is our responsibility as individuals and as a community to speak out against hate. All kinds of hate towards are fellow citizens, or better yet, our fellow human beings. We live in a time where hate should be unacceptable. I am not talking about taking away freedom of speech and disallowing people to voice their concerns, but speaking out as an individual against violence and hate can go a long way. 

(can't we all just get along?)

Moving on, I’ve been thinking a lot recently about words and their meanings (nerd). There are plenty of words that have developed in their meaning from a banal definition to an incendiary and hurtful connotation. Faggot, retard, nigger (are you offended yet?) even the word gay went through a period of negative connotation. However their level of offense is certainly different. For example, it took me awhile to decide if I would even type the word n***er or whether I would star it out, as I did here. The word is so inflammatory, and so hurtful and offensive that I personally am not comfortable saying it in any scenario. The many times I find myself quoting Chappelle Show, I tiptoe around the word, avoiding it at all costs. I know in the black community there is a lot of debate as to whether the word should be used at all. The fact remains that the word, while still maintaining it’s power in most settings, has developed another connotation meaning “friend”. 

I also find the word faggot extremely offensive, I personally chose not to say it and would prefer not to hold company with those that do. I do not however, find it has quite the same effect as the “n” word. 

While still offensive but not quite as incendiary is the word “retard”. Tim Shriver’s recent campaign to end the use of this word has brought a lot of attention to this one. Now I can’t pinpoint why exactly this word packs less of a punch than the others. Is it because the connotation and denotation are essentially the same? Shouldn’t that, in theory, make it more offensive? Is it because the group that is being offended is not the target of vehement hate? 

Whatever the case my be I believe that we are responsible for our actions and we are well aware of the connotation of these word. If we use them, we use them with the intention to hurt, we use them with hate behind them. At the extreme end of this spectrum we have complete responsibility for our words, but as things get more unclear, our level of responsibility becomes questionable. For example, I remember in college signing a line to a rap song that consisted of referring to someone as “boy”. I was immediately informed by my friend that I shouldn’t use that word because it contained connotations of slavery. Who knew? Well not me in my sheltered little world, anyway. So without the knowledge and intention behind the word, how can it possibly contain the same amount of offense?

Let’s bottom line it. Unfortunately we are not judged by our intentions, but by our actions. Whether Lil B was trying to draw attention to the plight of the gay community is ultimately irrelevant because his actions implied that he’s just trying to garner publicity. All we can do as individuals is choose not to use language that promotes hate. Where language gets hazy and connotations blend into each other, it comes down to your decision as an individual how you would like to be perceived. 

"You've Got to Admire Them All for Their Courage"

I don’t know if it’s stupid or beautiful, but so many people in this crazy city have yet to give up hope. They audition, draw, write, dance, sing, day after day and yet, even when there is no response, even when no one is around to see or feel their work, they press on. These people, they choose a life of uncertainty. They decide at some point “I will devote a certain amount of my life (sometimes a year, sometimes 12, sometimes a lifetime) to pursuing this dream that digs at my soul.” They choose, most often knowingly, to lose the closeness of loved ones, to risk having to give up everything, to chance the “other side” of life being lost to them. The “other side” being the husband/wife, picket fence, happy dog and steady paycheck. All of this is secondary to the “dream”. For some the dream is fame, for some the dream is insane fortune. These are the people that fade out. The people that give up for something more “realistic”. For most of us, however, the dream is producing something that we recognize as art. The dream is being able to skillfully take the ideals that we believe in so fiercely and turn them into a story, a picture, a play. To “smash the mirror” as Pinter would say, as show society what it really looks like. The desire is to communicate these things to both an intrigued and knowledgable audience as well as an unconcerned and unknowing public. To open eyes. To teach each other. To be energized and invigorated by our work because we are changing the world. Even if it’s our own little microcosm. And we are, or should I say we will, change the world.  

Here’s a beautiful poem by Bukowski, that explains these sentiments much better than I ever could:

A Sickness? Charles Bukowski

yes, I'm a Romantic, overly sentimental,

something of a hero worshipper,

and I do

not apologize for this.

instead, I revere Hemingway,

at the end of his endurance,

sticking the

barrel of the gun into his trembling

mouth;

and I think

of Van Gogh slicing off part of his ear

for a whore

and then blasting himself away in the

cornfield;

then there was Chatterton drinking rat

poison (an extremely painful way to die

even if you are a 

plagiarist);

and Ezra Pound dragged through

the dusty streets of Italy in a cage

and later confined to a 

madhouse;

Celine robbed, hooted at, tormented by

the French;

Fitzergald who finally quit drinking only to drop dead

soon thereafter;

Mozart in a pauper's grave;

Beethoven deaf;

Bierce vanishing into the wastelands of Mexico;

Hart Crane leaping over the ship's rail and

into the propeller;

Tolstoy accepting Christ and giving all his

possessions to the

poor;

T. Lautree

with his short, deformed

body

and perfectly developed

spirit,

drawing everything he

saw

and more;

D.H. Lawrence

dying of TB

and preparing his own Ship of Death

while writing his

last 

great poems;

Li Po

setting his poems

on fire

and sailing them down the

river;

Sherwood Anderson dying

of peritonitis

after swallowing a

toothpick

(he was at a party

drinking

martinis

when

the olive went in,

toothpick and

all);

Wilfred Owens killed

in the first Great War

while

saving the world for

Democracy;

Socrates drinking

hemlock with a

smile;

Nietzsche gone mad;

De Quincey addicted to opium;

Dostoevsky standing blindfolded before a 

firing squad;

Hamsun eating his own

flesh;

Harry Crosby commiting

suicide hand in hand with his

whore;

Tchaikovsky trying to

evade his homosexuality

by marrying a female

opera star;

Henry Miller, in his old

age, obsessed with

young Oriental

girls;

John Dos Passos going

from fervent left-winger

to ultraconservative

Republican;

Aldous Huxley taking

visionary

drugs and

reaping imaginary

riches;

Brahms in his youth,

working on ways

to build a powerful

body

because he felt that

the mind

was not

enough;

Villon barred from Paris,

not for his ideas

but rather because he was a 

thief;

Thomas Wolfe who felt he couldn't

go home again

until

he was

famous;

and Faulkner:

when he got his morning mail.

he'd hold the envelope up

to the light

and if he couldn't see

a check in there

he'd throw it

away;

William Borroughs who shot and

killed his

wife

(he missed the apple

perched

on her

head);

Norman Mailer knifing his

wife; no apple

involved;

Salinger not believing

the world was worth writing

for;

Jean Julius Christian Sibelius,

a proud and beautiful man

composer of powerful music

who after his 40th year

went into hiding and was seldom

seen

again;

nobody is sure who 

Shakespeare

was;

nightlife killed Truman

Capote;

Allen Ginsberg becoming a 

college

professor;

William Saroyan marrying the

same woman twice

(but

by then

he wasn't going anywhere

anyhow);

John Fante being sliced away

bit by bit

by the surgeon's knife

before my very

eyes;

Robinson Jeffers

(the proudest poet of them all)

writing

beggin letters to those in power.

of course, there's more

to tell

and I could go

on and on

but even I

(the Romantic)

begin to

tire.

still, these men and women

--past and present--

have created and are creating

new worlds for

the rest of us,

despite the fire and despite the ice,

despite the

hostility of governments,

despite the ingrown distrust of the masses,

only to die

single 

and usually

alone

.

you've got to admire them all

for the courage,

for the effort,

for their best and their

worst.

some gang!

they are a source of light!

they are a source of joy!

all of them

heroes you can be

grateful for

and admire from afar

as you wake up

from your ordinary dreams

each morning.

Avenue A Inspiration

Avenue A Inspiration

I find you most beautiful at night.

You still reek of life while the rest of the world

wastes their time with sleep.

You have no patience for such frivolity.

Whiskey dreams maybe,

but only wide awake.

You have hearts to feed and 

minds to rattle.

Wiping tears with neon lights

you drag people through their darkness,

hit them with such life

they can barely catch their breath.
At 2am you’re stunning. 

Still looking like daytime

yet somehow austere.

With clamoring silence 

I can walk through your streets

heartened that there’s a subway handy

or a coffee within reach. 

Despite my deepest demons 

you welcome me with open arms. 

A selfish lover

You take all and leave so little left.

Perhaps you’ll be the death of me

but i’m sure it will be lovely.

Michael Scott Finally Gets Something Right!

Warning: Spoilers!

A little disclaimer-I have been a fan of The Office from day one. I loved the British version and I loved the American version just as much. You really can’t compare the two  for those of you that are constantly trying to. They may both have the same story lines, but each actor made a totally different character than their English counterpart. Both versions are well crafted pieces of television comedy (not to mention American humor and British humor are two totally different animals). 

The Office has had it’s highs and lows over the past 7 seasons, some seasons have seemed uninspired and “phoning it in” while others have been hilarious and well written. I would just like to say that last night’s episode of The Office was one of the most well written pieces of television comedy I’ve seen in awhile. Michael Scott FINALLY getting something right after years of screw up after screw up, the tension leading up to his big moment, just waiting for it to go wrong and the relief and happiness when he succeeds is only matched by the moment when he tells the staff he is moving to Colorado. In that precise moment all of the characters we’ve watched struggle with Michael over the past 7 years realize just how much they truly love him. They managed to accomplish all this real emotion while still maintaing the level of comedy they are known for. 

I mean, it’s “just” comedy, I guess...but this truly was a fantastic piece of television. Thank you writers of The Office for not letting television die in the hands of the laugh track and Charlie Sheen’s tigers blood. The only thing I ask of you, please please please end it after this season. Go out leaving people wanting more, don't beat it to death until no one wants to watch it anymore. I mean, I know you've got Will Ferrell and all but this is Michael Scott's show and after all....isn't it better to burn out than fade away? 

In Defense of Rebecca Black....wait, what?

The recent video “Friday” by Rebecca Black has highlighted two things that are very wrong with America. Yes, it did highlight the despicable state of the music industry, but that’s not one of the two I’m talking about. One is the idea of privilege and the raising of a generation to believe that they don’t have to work hard for anything and two is the use of the internet as shield from consequences. People have a freedom to write whatever they want on the internet because they have the guise of anonynimity. They can judge because no one is able to judge them. They are nothing...they are a voice of opinion floating out in the interweb. What they say doesn’t matter, I suppose, but that doesn’t mean that isn’t harmful. 

In case you haven’t seen it, this is the awful video that everyone is talking about. 

From the basic standpoint of music appreciation I think we can all agree on a few things. 

1.This is one of the most terribly written songs of all time. 

2.The video itself is awkward, oddly shot and adds to the confusion created by the song lyrics. 

3.Rebecca is not the worst singer of all time, but she’s not exactly record deal material either. 

All that being said, I would argue that the majority of fault for the birth of this video lies in the production company and the songwriter (neither of which are Rebecca herself). In fact, I have a lot of respect for this 13 year old who seemingly was able to roll with the punches..and there were a lot of punches...about 34 million of them. She handled the situation with a maturity beyond her 13 years and I applaud her for that. Where my major issue comes from, is her parents. 

Rebecca’s parents forked over the money to this shady production company to produce this video for their precious baby girl. What does that tell Rebecca? “Oh darling, Justin Bieber’s agent won’t find you a record deal? It’s ok, Mommy and Daddy will just buy you one. Who says you need talent when you have money darling.” 

As part of the arts industry (albeit a miniscule part) I’ve seen so much of this I’m often left wondering if my parents are doing me a disservice by being realistic with me and expecting me to support myself. There’s a difference between supporting your 13 year old daughter’s dreams (i.e, maybe you pay for her to get voice lessons) and straight up giving her false hope. I know people who’s parents pay for their rent in New York City and give them an allowance (at 25 years old!) so they don’t have to trouble themselves with a job while they go out on auditions. Maybe I’m just jealous, but the people I know who have had to struggle, who have had to find a balance between their dreams and stark reality, those people have developed character...and their art is far more interesting for it. What will happen to these privileged people when they realize the world won’t be blinded by money forever (at least for the love of all things creative, I hope not), or when Mom and Dad die and the money runs out? They better find a sugar daddy quick because in this economy just being pretty ain’t  gettin’ you a job sweetheart. 

Onto a totally different argument, which can still point the finger at misguided parents-internet bullying. 

The comments you can find on Ms. Black’s video are awful. Here are two of the many:

“wut the fuck is this her and all her ugly friends should get raped and then die a slow painfull death. hopfully this is ur last song cus after this song the suside rate went up by 87%.”

“Please, Rebbeca Black go take a few shots of Drano.. When you start throwing up blood you know it's working”

Now, these people are probably wastes of space with no self esteem who make themselves feel better by making little girls cry on the internet. However, just because these people have no credibility, doesn’t mean what they have to say is not hurtful, or by any means ok. We all know that kids can be hurtful, little girls quickly learn the power of exclusivity and little boys quickly learn the power of being “cool”. Children exist in their own social hierarchy and the moralities of the adult world don’t yet apply. I believe that it is our responsibility as adults, as parents, as older siblings, as role models (because let’s be honest, anyone who interacts with a child immediately becomes an example) to demand that this kind of behavior is wrong. I can’t help but feel that my two points are deeply connected. If you raise a generation of children to believe that they don’t have to work hard, that the world will hand them everything they could ever need or want, they will believe that they are superior to those who don’t get everything they need and want. They will believe that these “others” are somehow lacking. They won’t see the need to prove themselves as human beings with quality and character. 

I have never raised a child and can’t being to imagine the difficulties that one encounters with such a task. However, I can tell you with certainty that my parents raised me in a way that would never allow me to talk about anyone like this. They raised me to believe that I am responsible for my words and actions whether or not anyone knows I was the one who committed them. They raised me to believe that not only do I have to prove myself to them, but ultimately, I have to answer to myself. I have to live with my choices. Not that I was a perfect child, I certainly did my share of gossiping and served my time of groundings, but to believe that I had the right to talk about people in a way such as this would never have crossed my mind. I can’t help but feel that children, teens and eventually adults who have this twisted sense of superiority had the seeds planted by their immediate role models, their parents. They say it takes a village to raise a child, well it’s time our society started demanding more from our children. It’s time we demand that they prove themselves. Respect is not doled out because you pay for it. You have to earn it, you have to work hard for it. Let’s stop sugar-coating the world, ay? 

There sure are some crazies out there....Who the hell pickets a funeral?!

In an 8 to 1 vote the supreme court has ruled that it is admissible by law for people to picket funerals. Seems to fall under the good ‘ol free speech category. I truly believe that this is an extremely delicate issue, where the outcome could have surely created a domino effect that could lead to *gasp* a 1984-esque future. So I will go against Francisco d’Anconia’s advice and give my own, irrelevant opinion. (High five if you get the reference!)

First off, I think we can all agree that any person who chooses to picket a funeral is a little (perhaps a lot) sick in the head. (how effed up is that video?!?) I suppose you’re making a point by being grossly offensive and hateful, but the only hearts your winning are the people who are as sick as you...and for the rest of our sakes let’s hope that demographic is a minority. 

As someone who is socially liberal, this is a difficult issue for me to grab a hold of. It is simply wrong to do what the members of Westboro Baptist Church did and I truly hope that whatever god they believe in sends them to whatever hell they believe in and they rot in it. If you are so inclined to be so deeply involved in a church that preaches hate, that is your prerogative, but let others live their lives as they choose. Your opinion of the lifestyle of others is irrelevant. Keep it for your own sermons and preach to your own screwed up choir. 

However, I feel as though banning this type of behavior could possibly be the slippery slope that so many of us fear. I have to agree with Chief Justice Roberts that perhaps the best way to go about this issue is to create stronger, larger, buffering zones around funerals. I also have heard various stories where the communities have banned together to block or prevent this type of behavior. Yes you have a right to freedom of speech, but that doesn’t mean there will be no consequences. I am not a religious person, but the shadow that these people are casting on christianity is sad and disgusting. These are the people Ghandi was talking about when he said “I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians, your Christians are so unlike your Christ”.

In America you have the freedom to be who you want to be, say what you want to say, have sex with whoever you damn well please and be happy about it. If you want something other than this, move somewhere else, please. I for one, would be overjoyed to see you leave our “sick country”. As so many politicians and pundits have said, freedom of speech is not negotiable. However, neither is our right as Americans to be free and choose what we want for ourselves. You do not have the right to tell me or anyone else how to live. Go create your own precious little Zion somewhere hidden far away from us...and you better pray real damn hard that what you believe is correct...because if not, the wrath of karma is coming for you...and I hope it beats the shit out of you. 

For some interesting supplemental info, check out some of my favorite pundits..

Jon Stewart on the daily show...

The ever entertaining, if not totally sane, Glenn Beck

Aaand for a little perspective...the “elitists” version of the eloquent political asshole...Bill Maher